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(no subject) [Dec. 17th, 2014|07:12 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 9th, 2012|06:34 pm]
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I'm comforting myself for not being able to write (either the story I want to continue, or the stories I volunteered for, or anything, really) by posting all the prompt fills I can lay my hands on from months gone by when I still knew how to use a keyboard.

I'm not sure I've actually written anything that wasn't a prompt fill in the last few years. Well, except for my Purimgifts stories, which is possibly why I always end up sweating (happy joyful) blood over those. Weird.

Start With a Larger Pot - Avengers. Prompt: After their missions, Steve makes food for all the Avengers.

Playing From the Bench - Supernatural. Prompt: Jess is a hunter; Sam is the ghost she's not sure she wants to stop haunting her. It was supposed to be shippy, but I... don't really want to ship Sam Winchester with anyone, never mind his ceiling girlfriend.

Decide What It Means - My So-Called Life. Prompt: Rayanne/Angela, "I want to rob lumber mills and hospitals with you, and just bewilder the hell out of people. The way love should."

That last one is hands-down my favorite, though somehow in a way that makes it okay that no one reads MSCL fic. And this is the magic of prompts, really, because somewhere in the back of my mind I always wanted to write a Rayanne story -- maybe not this Rayanne story, but something -- and on my own, I can't imagine I would have.

One of my biggest fandom wishes (right next to more Ray/Brad) will always be that MSCL could be more recent, and yet somehow still be the show so many of us watched as teenagers, so that there could be dozens of Rayanne Graff stories out there. Because I always felt like, in the show's mind, she was That Girl You Knew When You Were Young, who's then gone from the story forever. And I still resent the hell out of that.

...My new big fandom wish is a Generation Kill/My So-Called Life story where Ray Person and Rayanne Graff have even one second of interaction. That's probably going to happen any second now, right?

Completely unrelated to all of this, that Avengers story up there is... a bit awkwardly written, in all honesty. I always mean to put a note up here when I post to AO3 and then I never do, but if you want to try my attempts at writing Avengers you're probably better off reading A Big-Screen Life, a.k.a the story that got me the most hits and kudos-es I'll ever have on anything. Shut up, this is a lot for me.
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...And more random fic, actually [Oct. 31st, 2011|05:35 pm]
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Prompt from TV tropes day at comment_fic: Doctor Who, Amy & Rory, We Are Not Going Through That Again. Written back during the hiatus, iirc; one detail at least is just straight-up jossed, but I'm pretty sure the rest works as an AU. ~600 words, and not a happy bunny, though I have to admit I still like how it turned out. I'm only a wuss about other people's stories.

Fun fact: For some reason I either don't have a Doctor Who tag, or lj has lost it and refuses to admit it. I do, however, have a tag called 'doing god's work', which is from back when me and Kael vandalized Alabamian church signs in a strike against homophobia. (Well, for a value of 'vandalized' that means 'stole some of their letters and rearranged the rest for a less hateful message'. My way is funnier.) My personal history as a daylight vigilante: still hilarious.


The swirling lights die down. The world is silent. Rory's hand in hers is clutching tight, and she can't tell which of them it is that's still shaking.Collapse )
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Random fic posting [Oct. 31st, 2011|04:52 pm]
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This is either my second or third Dean/Eliot ficlet, depending on if we count the incredibly short incredibly silly one or just the mostly short mostly silly ones. Not sure how that works, but apparently those are the prompts I can most reliably fill. Weird.

Anyway! SPN/Leverage, ~700 words.

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(no subject) [Jul. 4th, 2011|04:29 pm]
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I watched the X-Men movie yesterday, and my first instinct was to post a big long post of ranting; I liked a great many things about it, but there were so very many things that made me angry. For one thing, I was prepared for the casual racism, but not for just how much sexism there was in it, or for the 'Look! Like Mad Men, we're extremely aware of how sexist the 60's were! Isn't that awful? Aren't we so very sensitive, with how extremely unaware we are of our own GIGANTIC OH MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME sexism?'

Instead I ranted by text message and email and phone, and then I thought I felt better and was ready to move on. But apparently it's going to take a little while longer.

I really did like a lot of things about it. The casting was excellent, other than Betty Draper, who played a cardboard cutout of Emma very convincingly. I've never really sympathized with Erik before, and the end really worked for me with that (for that situation, for that age; I'm still not sure how I feel about his future.) And I liked almost all of the characters. I really didn't like Hank, though, and let me tell you, that was a blow. How do you write an unlikable Hank? That makes no sense to me.

One of the things that bothered me most, though, was Raven. I really enjoyed her all through the movie; the actress was great, her interaction with most of the other characters was really enjoyable. And there was almost an unrequited love angle with Charles, fine, they dropped that in time; and there was that kiss with Erik, less fine, but whatever; and it took me until today to realize what her character arc really consisted of, and how it works as a parallel to Hank's.

Because the only thing we ever see Raven worry about, for her own benefit as opposed to Charles', is whether men can want her. I loved that they set up a familial relationship with Charles, but then they almost immediately added in romantic jealousy and could-you-want-me; she says nothing about how people might treat her when she has blue skin, only about whether the men around her -- Charles, Hank, Erik -- would think she's desirable. And that makes some sense for a girl her age. Not perfect sense, because we know she was out in the world alone as a blue-skinned kid, and she might have some concept of the fact that people are a problem even when you don't want to have sex with them. But it makes sense that she'd want to feel beautiful, loved, wanted.

Except then there's Hank, and his mutation is basically invisible when he's in public, i.e when he wears shoes. It's the kind of mutation I'd expect a boy his age to focus on a great deal as far as sexuality goes, because he's also the right age that 'how will this look to sexual partners' might well be a big part of the way he looks at himself, and unlike Raven, his mutation would only be a natural part of specific settings, i.e ones where he takes his shoes off, and sex is often one of those. But we never hear about it; a pretty girl thinking he's amazing is great, but it's not really the point. Seeming normal is the point, and the way other guys perceive him is the point. And that's nice and slashy and all, but mostly it defines what's important to men vs. what's important to women, and it's such a small part of the movie but somehow it's one of the things that seem worst. I really liked Raven; I hate that that's all we see of her. I hate that her entire journey is defined by men and how they see her, by choosing which man to be loyal to.

Anyway. I came back home and this fixit story about Darwin was the first thing on my flist, so that was great; Darwin and Angel were another thing that bothered me to no end, for all the obvious reasons. But I really want an epic, epic story where Raven stands on that beach and looks around and says, well, fuck you all, I'm starting my own group, nothing about my backstory explains why I'd be okay with trying to kill a few thousands of people other than the fact that the guy who did that told me I'm beautiful. And that's incredibly important when you've been brought up by your only friend to feel like a freak, but damn it, there are some things beyond that, and maybe it's a bad idea to team up with people who want a global nuclear war. Maybe I don't have to believe people who tell me I have to hide OR the people who tell me I should be proud and also kill people.

So I guess this really was a great long rant post in the end, but on the other hand, it would have been so much longer if I'd written it last night. Why can't things just be awesome?
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(no subject) [Jun. 18th, 2011|09:55 pm]
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So this is another day where I have no business writing posts, and so, of course, I shall.

Things I've been meaning to post for the last, oh, eternity and a half:

1. froggyfun365 has recorded four of my stories, and beyond the fact that omg podfics the world is made of awesome, her reading is amazing. She gave each of them a different feel, and each works so well with the story. I'm just... absolutely thrilled about these (and have been for all the time it took me to do this).

The only thing I'm sad about here is that my fic tends to be so short; each of these is under 10 minutes. On the other hand, when I try to write epics, well, see lj cut.

Gather Up Our Hearts (Inception, Mal), this untitled bit of Draco/Ron ridiculousness (much funnier in podfic form!), In the Beginning (Bible, Eve), and Shall Set You Free (White Collar, June). Also, \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/

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Current lesson learned from all of this: I need to start using my brain while I write.

tl;dr etc etc:

I gave one of those poor abandoned beginnings to roga as an extra gift, both as harassment compensation and because, um, two of the purimgifts stories I wrote for her didn't make that much sense. And then this happened, because apparently being utterly ridiculous in all ways has benefits.

Respectable Policework - It wasn't that Constables Lambert and Saporta were untrustworthy. It was just that Vimes didn't trust them.

The beginning is mine; the awesome magic that happens after is roga's. Discworld/AI RPF/bandom, but I'm pretty sure even just knowing one of these will make it hysterical. Just thinking about the desert makes me smile like a loon.
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In random news [Jun. 13th, 2011|07:19 pm]
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Last night, six hours after sitting down to finish a few last things on our group project, we tried to come up with an ending. That was supposed to be the easiest part, but we were tired and sick of heart valves and had run out of words about two hours earlier. In the end, I typed up a half-assed summary and gave it to Inmate #2, our native English speaker, to fix while she was proof-reading the whole thing.

Since we really were all very tired, our project (a make-believe research proposal) now ends with the words, Our study is one of several [current studies] which seek to [clear the way to a better tomorrow, a world without war, and the perfect heart valve.] I do hope the TA has a sense of humor. Knowing him, my guess is he'll laugh and also mark it down 10 points.
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2011|09:32 pm]
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There are about three hundred things I've been meaning to post, including the amazing amazing podfics froggyfun365 made of some of my stories, the equally amazing (and hilarious) story roga wrote off a few random lines of mine, and a ficlet I wrote for nogah that she kindly wanted to link to. But instead of any of that, I'm going to pick the worst day possible, where I don't really have time for anything, and post a completely random story I wrote a months back at the comment_fic comm. Those other things will happen! Soon! On a day when hunting down links and raving at length don't seem like they'll take longer than writing this never-ending paragraph! Yeah.

So, I wrote this on a day when the theme was 'The Dead and The Dying', for a prompt by oteap: Being Human, George/Mitchell, last breath. Since I haven't watched the show since s1 and might have forgotten some things along the way, it's best to consider this a (possibly mild) AU, probably.

Future fic; character death; George/Mitchell, Annie. 800 words.

In a week or a month he'll stare out the window and wish he could work up the energy to smash things, to hit the wall. He'll tell Annie that now they can go wherever they want, climb mountains and discover if ghosts can scuba dive deeper than vampires, take the stairs at a run and leave the news at a reasonable volume. Annie will cry, and squeeze three drops of lemon into another cup of tea, stir in two spoons' worth of honey, then pour it all down the drain and fling the cup at his head.Collapse )
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2011|01:17 pm]
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I assume everyone's read this by now, but just in case - via cofax7: Denise on the DDOS attacks on LJ and why you should support both LJ and the Russian user-base. So, people who grumble about "the Russians" taking over LJ should remember that in Russia, LiveJournal isn't just the top blogging platform, it's the blogging platform. It is Russia's free press. It is the tool being used to fight corruption and advance the cause of democracy. And, more practically to LJ users, the Russian-speaking sector of LJ is the reason LJ is still there at all.

There are some interesting links in the comments, as well as this, from anotherdream:

Just today, the Russian federal security service FSB has proposed that foreign web communication services such as Gmail, Hotmail and Skype should be banned in Russia. They see such services as a threat to national security, because they cannot monitor or control what users of these services communicate to one another. (Later it was reported that this is the stance of one official, but even later it was amended that it IS the official position of the FSB. Finnish media reports that the relevant ministries do not believe that any blocking will be implemented.)

...so yeah. There's your free internet and press in Russia.



I don't think I ever blamed 'The Russians', but I've definitely been pissed off at LJ for some of its actions over the years, and at best just thought it was their right to do certain things for their own benefit as a business even if they were screwing me over as a customer.

I haven't seen anything yet to make me think SUP is in it for the free press (they might well be; I know less than nothing about this issue). So possibly that means I still get to be pissed off at them. But it also means that, on the one hand, I'll look at their priorities and choices differently, and on the other hand, that I can't just blithely assume fandom is all going to move off LJ and onto DW at some point and that will be the happy ending; we might be a tiny pocket of awareness, but it seems like some international awareness is good here. Or it might just be good for us.

World: still strange and terrifying. Right on.

ETA: Unrelatedly, the things you forget when you never post anything: LJ spellcheck doesn't recognize fandom, but it also doesn't recognize LiveJournal. That one's not so easily explained.
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Just a note to inform you that you're interrogating reality from the wrong perspective [Apr. 5th, 2011|09:22 pm]
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Following a conversation about googling oneself, I've googled my own name in Hebrew. I've tried this before and found out Google doesn't know me, but apparently it knows one lawyer me and one teenager-in-an-MCR-forum me. (But not really me. No, really.) That was a year or two ago, though, and apparently there's been developments since; lawyer me is still a lawyer, but teenage me is no longer in band forums and now puts her own songs up on youtube.

And then I went one page forward and discovered it does know me after all! 'In the role of god,' it says, very clearly, under one of the links, [full real name].'

I've never felt so well understood. \o/ \o/
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